When I initially started this blog, I wanted to be an inspiration to plus size women everywhere. I wanted to make a difference in your lives, leave an imprint on your heart, and help you on your journey to being the best you that you could possibly be. In my mind, I thought that this could be accomplished with a few fashion tips, motivational words, and confidence building exercises. Giiiirrrrlllll, was I wrong. Yes, many of you need/want these things… and I will continue to deliver. However, a few moments ago I came to realize that my fear of appearing vulnerable, had kept me from really connecting with you.
My life is not perfect. In fact, it is far from it. Sure I have a nice place, a few decent things, and am generally pretty financially stable… but these things did not come quickly or easily. There is a story behind each and every one of my successes and failures, and as we grow closer I will share many of them with you.
A few short hours ago I lost one of the most important men in my life…my step-father. As I sit here on what is probably one of the most difficult nights of my life, I feel everything but fabulous. I am sad, angry, depressed, and worried. However, I am committed to all of you… to my dream… and most importantly to myself and a promise that I made to him.
In spite of the sadness I feel, the conflicting emotions, and the pain that I cannot describe… I will continue the journey I have begun. And that Queens, is a lesson for you. No matter what life throws at you, you need to find the strength to continue to pursue your dreams and create the life that you imagine for yourself. NO EXCUSES.
Bad things happen. It’s just a part of life… but it’s in those moments that you are presented with the opportunity to show the world how bad ass, determined, and resilient that you can be. I refuse to quit because of fear, haters, pain, or even death. I want to inspire people. I want people to say,”because of you I refused to quit, and I won.” If this post helps to keep one Queen motivated than I have accomplished what I set out to do.
I have something to say, and until I have said it all I AM NOT GOING ANYWHERE. I love you all, thank you for following me, supporting me, and growing with me.